Grizzly's going back to work. AAAACCCGGGHH....
I mean, c'mon! Home with the kids for 4 years (and a year part time before that), old mainframe head - can't stand those client server network thingamajigs, getting up there in years. Criminy - who has a mainframe anymore?! I didn't expect to actually GET a job when I hit that send key...
But it's true. My husband recently lost the job that provided the medical benefits and in an offhand way I sent a hastily typed up resume out over the cables (see? I call them 'cables'..) and the next day I heard from 2 companies. The NEXT frigging day.
The one that panned out has full benefits from day one, halfway decent pay, 3 weeks paid vacation, 2 weeks sick leave, a very cool medical spending account that comes with a debit card for all those medical & dental expenses that aren't covered by insurance, life insurance for all, 8 paid holidays, a stable shift and schedule. Everything a Grizzly Mama could want, right?
Why am I so depressed and frightened? Of course it will be difficult educating the kiddies at home with both Mama and Papa working full time. I'm going to miss the girlies. Papa will have to step up to the plate to help with both school and housework. He's a bit of a slob.
Funny how it all worked out. The older ones last week of school is next week. The little one just finished up pre-school. We have a full summer to get into a new groove. The girls need to get used to Papa taking care of them. He has been working 12 hour shifts - 6 days p/week. It's been just me and my girlies out there doing our thing.
Our lives will be very different. I feel very grateful to have had the time home with the little ones that I have had. It will be good for them and for Papa to have some more time together.
What if I'm no good at what I do anymore???!!! Ohhhhhhh - I really hate starting new jobs. *biting nails*